Damn it! This is ridiculous! I know what will make me happy, what lifts my consciousness and what does not! I know if I busy myself with FaceBook browsing, watching movie after movie on Netflix, reading excessively, endlessly checking my games status on my iPhone, then I will not be happy. That I will end up ruminating and suffering more.
I don’t want to do anythying! Which is why I must!
The things that make me happy:
If I’m not busy with one of these or looking for a job (which I really, really don’t want to do but must), then I’m going to end up in some obsessive acting out or ruminating. I’m an excellent ruminater! Man I so wish I wasn’t.