I’ve been making these entries first thing each morning. This is not optimal. I’m so busy with rumination, acting out obsessive compulsive behavioral pattern, that I think I’m viewing this entry as the only thing I need to do each day and once I get it done I’m free to goof around the rest of the day. This is not healthy and not helping me move to a healthier state of being. I’m going to start making these entries in the evening. I’ve gotta find some focus the urge to run away is not getting any smaller.