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Day 8, AM Entry – My Climb Out of Depression

I’ve been making these entries first thing each morning. This is not optimal. I’m so busy with rumination, acting out obsessive compulsive behavioral pattern, that I think I’m viewing this entry as the only thing I need to do each … Continue reading

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Day 7 – My Climb BACK DOWN INTO Depression

Damn it! This is ridiculous! I know what will make me happy, what lifts my consciousness and what does not! I know if I busy myself with FaceBook browsing, watching movie after movie on Netflix, reading excessively, endlessly checking my … Continue reading

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Day 6 – My Climb Out of Depression

I hate appearing as weak or ineffectual to her. I think there could be something important still to play out betwen us… Maybe my confession of depression has ruined that possibility. It’s too late to worry about that now; the … Continue reading

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Day 5 – My Climb Out of Depression

April 30, 2013 Better or worse?  Who can tell.  I confessed (partially) to B about how bad I’m feeling. Yesterday, I returned to the gym for another hour plus of cardio exercise.  I sat with Lou (virtually at 9) for … Continue reading

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Day 4 – My Climb Out of Depression

April 29, 2012 Oops! Clearly this is NOT working! I felt worse than ever yesterday!  Why can’t I ask for help? Why must I endlessly spin my wheels? Felt highly anxious and depressed all day.  Went for a walk with … Continue reading

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Day 3 – My Climb Out of Depression

Day 3 – april 28, 2013 Yesterday I went to the gym and did cardio for 70 minutes during which time I watched the first part of IDIOCRACY (not a great move by any stretch of the imagination but it … Continue reading

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Day 2 – My Climb Out of Depression

Day 2 – april 27, 2013 Yesterday I admitted to being deeply depressed and I listed the following seven “problems” that are currently hold me in a depressive mood. No money No energy Lack of sobriety / recovery from my … Continue reading

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