Depression & Dhamma

I am the following:

1. Agnostic / Atheist
2. Secular Buddhist
3. Scorpio
4. Addict
5. Inventor
6. Programmer
7. Someone looking for love

I can’t embrace any literalist, dogmatic belief structure any more.  Religion, if it has any value, must be embraced loosely; read more like poetry than literal fact.  The divisiveness and violence done by man against man in the name of “god” sickens and disgusts me.  I’m trying to learn to hold no “fixed views” so I could be wrong about any or all of this.

Lying in bed this morning I had a glimpse of what it would be like to totally release the belief or existential concern I have over the existence / non-existence of my soul. If I could just release this “view” how much courage I would have.  If I wanted to leave nothing undone then I’d get on with it.  On with all my endless, infernal lists, with love, with living.  This has not been my mode so far but I suppose tomorrow (today!) is a new day and it’s possible I can change.