Day 8, AM Entry – My Climb Out of Depression

I’ve been making these entries first thing each morning. This is not optimal. I’m so busy with rumination, acting out obsessive compulsive behavioral pattern, that I think I’m viewing this entry as the only thing I need to do each day and once I get it done I’m free to goof around the rest of

Day 7 – My Climb BACK DOWN INTO Depression

Damn it! This is ridiculous! I know what will make me happy, what lifts my consciousness and what does not! I know if I busy myself with FaceBook browsing, watching movie after movie on Netflix, reading excessively, endlessly checking my games status on my iPhone, then I will not be happy. That I will end

Day 6 – My Climb Out of Depression

I hate appearing as weak or ineffectual to her. I think there could be something important still to play out betwen us… Maybe my confession of depression has ruined that possibility. It’s too late to worry about that now; the proverbial cat has escaped the proverbial bag.  It is what it is. Still it hurts.

Day 5 – My Climb Out of Depression

April 30, 2013 Better or worse?  Who can tell.  I confessed (partially) to B about how bad I’m feeling. Yesterday, I returned to the gym for another hour plus of cardio exercise.  I sat with Lou (virtually at 9) for 20 minutes last night.  Before that I again listened to the guided meditation body scan;